Like so many other nights before this, I was unable to sleep last night. It was not so much that I had a lot on my mind, though that was part of the reason. Like aspects of my life, I have been somewhat dissatisfied with aspects of my blog. Perhaps, like my life, it was lacking in flavor. There was nothing unique or special about it. Perhaps I should assert that it really is the blog I am talking about, not my life. Or is it?
In any case, after some searching for an appropriate image for my new header, and a little time in Photoshop making it more or less what I wanted, and with a few clicks of the mouse, my blog appears as it does now, with a slightly different layout, and a new color scheme. I like it. Though, I am starting to think that I need to address several key things about my blog. It no longer really meets my needs. I have been growing and changing, for some time now, and the blog needs to reflect that change by undergoing some change itself.
In the coming days, weeks, and months, I will be making some decisions about what I want out of my life, and out of my blog. In both, there will be some changes. Mostly little ones, subtle ones. But I suspect there may be one or two fundamental shifts in my blog. Though more or less still in the planning stage, I want to reorganize it, consolidate it with other writings I have on the web. I want to go back and tweak a few paragraphs, and perhaps delete others. My blog will need to reflect my life as it is now, and as I change things in my life, I want to change the blog.
As of this writing, I realize that my blog reflects one major concern in my life. It has no cohesive direction. Here, of course, I am referring to my life. I write about my experience. I joke about things that may or may not be appropriate. I use coarse language at times. How I present myself in my writing affects how people see me as a person, and it is becoming important to me that I present myself in a manner that reflects my evolving belief system. I am painfully aware that there comes a day when I will no longer be able to post to my blog. One day, my ramblings will cease altogether. What happens when I am no longer able to write? What I have written will need to stand on its own. It is my fervent hope that at some point in the future someone will run across my blog and will read it. Something I have written will catch their attention, and hopefully will have a positive impact on them. I am not sure exactly where this will lead me. I do however hope that I can increase my readership to a broader audience, while maintaining the relationships I have already built online. I do not expect to ever make money with my blog, but I am not opposed to the idea if I can find things of interest to write about.
I am reminded of my very first public blog where I did not really know what I wanted to write about, and had in mind only a limited direction to follow (which you can find HERE). So much has changed since then. I have been online for a lot of years, and this blog as it currently sits only reflects about a decade. If I ever get around to it, I need to finish and post a number of drafts and private entries. I have started keeping a notebook where I jot down ideas for future entries. It is my hope that in my blog as in my life, I can start to hold myself to a higher standard.
I still welcome any and all comments. Any ideas on my blog, any suggestions, please, By all means let me know. To those who read this thing (even though I have no followers, darn it!) I want to thank you for your continued support.
2 comments:
Unbeknownst to most, I also have medical issues. My father died very young, and well, I am so much like him it isn't funny. The sad part is, his health began to deteriorate much later than mine. I fear a short life as well. I do not talk about it much, though. It is cool that you want your blog to reflect the best part of you. My blog was very dark for awhile and I just can't go there again. I am trying to be better, but I hide behind my sarcasm and twisted sense of humor.
You heard my whine, nay! My plea and have joined the lonely ranks of those who follow me! Alas, in this, you are alone. A wretched victim of circumstance, and of a soft spot in your heart for pathetic old men whining about no one following their blog! But your sacrifice has not gone unnoticed, and I send my heartfelt thanks.
Too saccharin? Oh, Poo! Ah well... I am nevertheless glad you like the blog.
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