SLEEP AID

DECISIONS, DECISIONS...

I have sleep apnea, diabetes, a heart condition, and occasionally insomnia. Inotherwords, sometimes, life is a bitch. There are occasions, as I have mentioned previously in this blog, where for one reason or another, sleep evades me. Try as I might, I can lay down, count sheep, but I just see that working. Besides, sheep scare me. (Not Really) Tonight I decided to count liquor bottles. There were three of them in the freezer. Gee! I sure love having a choice! But sometimes it is so hard to make up your mind with so many choices available.

THE CHOICE MAKES ITSELF

So I looked at the bottles, and decided right away that Ouzo was a very bad idea no matter what time of the day it was. I could have done the black Velvet but my roomie cannot stand Wild Turkey, so even though the bottle is mine, I will leave it for him. (Actually, he has been drinking most of the Ouzo as well) So that leaves my favorite of the three, Wild Turkey on three rocks. If that wont relax me enough to find sleep, I do not know what will. I generally do not ever need more than one drink, and seldom drink more than a couple when I do, which is rare. I do not have a problem with drinking, I just have control issues and will not ever drink myself to oblivion. I do not like being out of control.

NIGHTCAP ANYONE?

So here it is, nearly 3am, and nightcap in hand, I am ready to call it a day. Tomorrow promises to be a long day. I am supposed to meet up with my (EX?) girlfriend at 5pm , and am a little nervous. She called it quits while insisting it was really my idea. Funny, I would think I might have remembered that. Relationships can be so difficult and draining at times. I do not know why it has to be so difficult to communicate when we both seem to be saying the same thing. On the one hand, neither one of us wants it to be over. I know I don't, and she says she feels the same way. But I am having a hard time telling these days. On the other hand, I am pretty tired of feeling like I was last on her list of priorities. I guess tomorrow I may find out.