MIA usually an attitude problem. Sorry. My Bad.

I was again reminded today of the fact I have not written in my blog in quite some time. I would like to say that I have been busy, but the truth is, no more so than normal. But still, something has been keeping me from writing. I have not been too busy. I have no life to speak of, so too busy is not accurate. I have plenty of time to write a few lines in either of my blogs. Yet I haven't. I would like people to assume I have a life, but whether or not I write in a blog will likely have little bearing on the outcome. The people online may incorrectly assume I am busy, therefore I have a life. The people I know in real life, who do not read this blog, but if they did, they would , knowing me already, correctly say I have no life. The fact is, I have a boring life, and it is unlikely that blogging or not blogging is going to fill whatever hole in my life I am trying to fill.

It strikes me that the reader here might find solace in the things that are not written.

If I am not writing in my blog regularly, several things are likely true.

I am doing okay. I am neither excelling at anything, nor am I in the abject pits of dispair.

I may actually be busy, but the previous observation would also hold true.

The status quo is maintained.


It is also possible that in my blogs, as in my life, when things are troubling me and I do not want to talk about it, I won't. I have a tendency when things are not going as well as I would like in my life, I pull away from friends and family, and away from the things I like to do. I will close my door, my window sometimes, and curl up under blankets trying to "sleep off" whatever is bothering me. So, perhaps if I am not writing, a reader may assume that I am just working things out and trying to gain a new, or at least different perspective.

In this most recent absence from my blogs, I think a little of each situation applies here.

I am well, well enough anyway, there are things bothering me, specifically my financial situation, my living arrangement, and my current on again, off again relationship. These things weigh heavily on me, and while I may want to write, actually sitting down to do it is difficult. Some things it seems are still a little difficult to talk about. Bottom line for now, Don't worry. I have not forgotten you. I am just very distracted right now. Just knowing you care is all I need, and if you need me to tell me that you are still important to me, whether I write or not in my blog, just email me directly and let me know. I can't hide from my email as well as I can hide from my blog. I will definitely reply.

Anyway, I do have a couple things of note to write about. My sis and I just hopped on the Max, a first for both of us, to go see my nephew. Another relative first... and even though we were a little nervous at first, we are glad we went, and we did have a good time. I am posting a few pics here.


The other thing that seems a little important.... Well, I am excited about it. Waterfront Blues Festival, July 4th Weekend. Portland, Oregon. Etta James and Johnny Winter are among the acts playing. I am SO going to that concert. For $10 and a two can donation to the Oregon FoodBank? I am so already there!