Sugar High: 2nd entry for August 18, 2005 11:30am
Gee.... that was fun. It is just a part of this whole mess I have decided I need and want to be in control of. My blood sugar when I checked it was 410. For anyone who is not in the know about diabetes, that is not a good number. Diabetes has significantly impacted my life, and the life of my family. With at least 3 other diabetic members of my immediate family it has had a very profound impact. Especially when two of those other three are now deceased, and were both amputees before they died. Anyway... I took my morning meds, injected 60 units of insulin, and took a little nappy poo. When I woke, sugars were 115. A much more reasonable score. Now the trick is keeping them there.
As I mentioned prior, my life is pretty much completely out of control. and I have decided I want to take control of those areas I can. Okay. So... a quick rundown of the stupidity factor. All of my issues are pretty much in the realm of my control. To a degree anyway. For example, my health. I am the only one that has control over that, and that is what this blog is about. (Partly anyway) I know I need to lose weight, do anything I can to strengthen my heart. watch my diet, control my blood sugars, exercise, and for goodness sake, lose the cigarettes! These things I have control over. Since the heart surgery I have managed to find excuse after excuse to pick up a cigarette. What am I thinking, really? I mean, they nearly killed me, and here I go and smoke anyway. Not to mention the stinking price.... the cost is too great. So... ixnay on the okingsmay. I did it before, I can do it again. I simply need to quit looking for excuses to continue, and find even one reason not to.... like maybe, I dont want to die? Good enough. Smoking is easy. What is hard is the diabetes. That involves more than just not doing something. That is a whole lifestyle change.
Ugh... I hate change.
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